Running in circles. Chasing tails.

Sabi sa census may 11 milyon na tao sa Metro Manila. Sa dami nang tao nun paano mo kaya malalaman kung sino sa kanila ang para sa’yo? pano kung nakasalubong mo na siya kaya lang di mo pinansin. Dumaan na pala sa harap mo pero yumuko ka para magsintas nang sapatos mo. Nakatabi mo na pala, kaya lang lumingon ka para tingnan ang traffic lights. Baka andun na siya, humarang lang yung pedicab.

Sa dinami-dami nang tao, may maswerteng nakahanap na, may mga naghahanap pa, may iba sumuko na. Pero yung pinakamasaklap, eh yung na sayo na pinakawalan mo pa..

Pero pano nga kaya no? Kung isang beses lang dumarating ang para sayo. palalampasin mo ba kahit nasa harap mo na?

Today, I heard what I already knew. Straight from her mouth. I believed much in everything she says that came to a point that I don’t believe myself anymore. But, not this one. My mind and heart kept arguing. They have their own belief. This pierced through my bones and flesh, skewering my heart. It’s like my heart was covered with thorns that tightens and tightens until the last drop of blood and the last gasp of breath. It’s hard to breathe, it’s like something’s heavy on the left side of my chest. Most of the time, I catch myself staring blankly to nowhere. Thinking. Wishing. Hoping. What could have been. I should have known this, this was never new to me. Not mentioning how many times this happened. I never really learned my lesson. But for now, I should face the things that scares the hell out of me. So next time, if this would ever happen again, I won’t be scared anymore. -xx||

Happy Anniversary, Daddy & Mommy! ♥